Lately I am feeling down. Too many things to think about and most of it is not going my way. Its been a few weeks of disappointment (NO...I am not planning to get pregnant!) and many rejections and also some no news. Don't even wanna layan this stay-at-home-mum. Very frustrating. Very disappointed. Very Sien. Very Sad sometimes. Very ....like no direction.
Besides that I still gotto continue my duty as SAHM, morning send, fetch afternoon, Cook, Clean (not that much- no mood lah!) , wash, hang, fold, wipe, you know what I mean. To day I am not happy woth the housework, I am getting used to it. It's been what.. 6 months? since that ex maid left. So it's better now.
I seldom eat, sometimes once a day at night. Most of the time my best friend is Nescafe. Morning once, lunch once like vitamin. Finally I bought my jeans for myself.
Anyway... i just went for a hair cut. When I am feeling sad/lost/disappointed I always go for a haircut. My neighbour offered to take care of Justin for me while Jayden is in sch. So I went and chopped my hair off. Before that I was playing with my hair and tried to make fringe with my long hair at home and Jayden said "Mami u cut yr hair like this. I like" And when he saw me he asked me"mami do you think yr hair is nice? I think not nice. Faster Go back and change it.". :( So you know how nice it is la.
Sigh.. i wonder what is next. Pls god.. make it exciting for me. Pls give me some good news!