Everything that used to be to normal for you seems to be so hard.
And everything became WHY? Why? Why? Why? when he is already doing it every single damn day.Why am I the only that seems to be struggling.
Its one of those days that you just wanna dig a grave and bury yourself or just hide yourself in a cave where no one can find you. No one ask you a question. No one expect a damn answer. No. Nothing. Just want to have a total silent day.
And you have to control the tears flowing and you gotto balance your head properly so the tears won't fall out. And it just stays in your eyes until it became too damn heavy and finally it falls out while you're driving.
It doesn't matter that your son finally knew that he really screwed up and he kept saying "Sorry mami. I say sorry mami. Sorry mami". And you just can't turn your head and say "it's okay babe".Cos it's not only him that is making your life so shitty today. It's as though everything that seems to be perfect suddenly became so shitty. And everything seems to be so unimportant anymore. Nothing matters anymore and you just wanna give up everything that you try so hard to practise and save.